Tuesday, November 08, 2005

I'm Afraid Of Everything

I am worried. Real worried. Life. The future. Scary. There is so much. So, so much. And I am so little. So, so little.

Jam for the Day: Oh Me by Nirvana

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Yes, you are so very small. So are we all. So very small, that is. Do you know what? Imagine the worst thing that could happen. The absolute worst thing (that doesn't kill you anyway). Guess what? You're still alive.

You get another chance. You can try again. Bankruptcy. BFD. Being alone. BFD - there are more than 6 billion people out there; you haven't met 1% of em. Being unemployed - hell, girl, you're in Austin; go be a vagabond for a year!

No matter what happens, no matter where you go, there you are. That's the constant. Yourself.

Believe that you are there.

Believe that you are allowed to be where you are.

Believe that you will survive.

Everything else is just details.

No matter how little you are, you still *are*.

Clear?

Blush said...

i can imagine the worst thing that can happen. i can actually tell you all about it. i probably sound like a whiny brat to everyone but there is so much more to this story. i probably should tell it. i just have to find the right time.

Nervous said...

Hey girl, hope you're okay. You're sounding like me - eek! But I know you're strong and can pull yourself out of it. Hope to chat with you soon when I get the computer set up at home. Take care.

Beth said...

I hate myself for doing this, but I'm going to recommend a book to you (I feel utterly pretentious doing so).

When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron.

I think it'll help.

Bx

Blush said...

hehe, thanks beth. sometimes things get to be too much for me and i need some help getting by. i appreciate yours more than you know.
:)